Saturday, October 30, 2010

Cheeze Ballz

So I went to a corn maze tonight.



It was a haunted halloween thing where people pop out at you and scare you as you're going through. It was fun for about 5 minutes until my friends and I took a wrong turn and ended up at the very end of the maze before we got through any of the middle part. We tried to go backwards so we could experience the whole thing, but on our way back, instead of scaring us, the people working in the maze kept telling us we were going the wrong way.

It was kind of a sad way to end my halloween. I asked one of my friends what she wanted to do after we got back from the maze, but she said she was going to meet her other friend Ashley at a restaurant. Oh. She said it in this sheepish way, like she knew that she was excluding me, and was trying to skirt the subject. Its funny, because her embarrassment about it was really what made me upset. If she had just said it in an open, nonchalant way I wouldn't have thought much of it. I would have thought, oh, of course she's not inviting me, why would she want me around when she can confide in a cooler, better friend? But she said it like she knew she was wronging me, and I guess that made me feel like I really was being cast aside.

I feel so far away from everyone. No one really likes me except for a couple people who I have serious issues with. One's clingy, one's a homophobe, and one's just an all around mess. I can't bear it, I think I'll die alone.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

More betterer not so woe is me news

I went shopping and bought these:
Well, not these per se, but a pair of Levis that look nearly exactly the same, but were apparently too cool to show up on google images. Mine have white laces. But holyshamoly, how awesome are these shoes??? Sure, they hurt my feet, and are a half size to small, and have nearly zero ventilation. But the inevitable athletes foot is a price I'm willing to pay. Did you see these shoes?? They're SEE THROUGH! which means I can wear a different pair of socks with them everyday, and voila, a new pair of sneaks! I wore my union jack socks the other day. The ones I got in London. I was going to never wear those socks, and keep them in their pristine newness for all eternity as a British souvenir. But that plan fell by the wayside once I bought these sneakers. These shoes are the epitome of AWESOMESAUCE, and I can't wait to get some new socks to wear with them. Plus they were only $10 at Lady Footlocker. Holy crap I can die happy. Happier. Eh. PLASTIC FEETZZZZ

Fuck its 2010. And you know what that means... Its almost my birthday. That means I'm almost 21 years old, and able to drink legally. If I didn't despise the thought of killing the few braincells I have, I would totally drown myself in alcohol by the end of the month. I've been wasting my life and time doing nothing, fucking zip, and God I'm gross. Seriously, I haven't even been posting on here regularly, and God knows I could spare a few minutes doing that. I've just been watching a ton of iCarly and Buffy repeats on le television, and eating arcade candy. fml. God I just turned into an emo child. eeeeeeeeeeeemmmmmmmmmmoooooooooo. I'm lame. Goodgoddam.